So today in dream group I confessed I have a hard time validating my emotions because they don't apply to logic and decisions are based out of logic and reasoning. So as we discussed these things I realized at some point in my life I agreed with the lie that if i did the responsible thing then at some point I would be able to do the things I am most passionate about in my free time. The ever elusive future sometime that is never a tangible date. You'd think verses like 'hope deferred makes the heart sick' would shed light into this cavernous responsibility vacuum that sucks all of my time, energy, and resources. The Lord has asked me this question, 'what do you want?' simple enough, right? This question haunts me for one simple reason;
Do I think I'm WORTH the risk to ante all of me?
My daddy owns the cattle on a thousand hills and knit me together intimately created in his delight so why wouldn't I be created with desires just as I was created out of his desire? Why do I think any perceived lack could or should hold me back from all I have been created to posses and have dominion over?
If I leave my inheritance laying on the table where does it really go? It's still serving something. All of my journey has been leading to an epic battle already won, the battle for my destiny.
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