I have often wondered how the goodness of God affects our lives. A lot of people have a mental paradigm that says, The Lord is just waiting for me to screw up. Now I've had a lot of experience with pain and suffering, some circumstances were outside my control, others were direct consequences of my choices. But how does the goodness of The Lord flow through when I have freewill?
One experience that changed my life happened a few years ago. I was in a rut, I worked for a nationwide super company in sales and middle management. I liked the checks but I felt my soul die a little every time I went to work. Now that being said, I am not someone to quit easily.nor give up good income. I was invited by my former roommate to Godstock a couple hours away.
Getting time off on a weekend was nigh impossible, but I was blessed to get my time off approved. That weekend during worship with Rick Pino, I heard The Lord speak clearly that I would be moving to this small town in the sticks. And just like every "good Christian girl". I told The Lord he'd have to take my job from me before I'd move here. Now you better believe if you box God in to moving in your life only through the most painful situations instead of choosing to lean into the change coming.
It took me another eight and a half months to end up where God was calling me. And you might be thinking I was in trouble with God for taking so long to get there. But he began an incredibly sweet journey that August to rediscovering my heart.
Before I moved and even as details were coming together I felt the sacrifice was too great for me to handle, the truth is, the blessing after the sacrifices made the
move far outweighed anything left behind. I developed my gifting, found a beautiful and loving community of believers that challenged and invested in me as I learned to share life in an incubator of the things of The Lord. I watched the perspective I had about The Lord change from a God I needed to impress to catch his attention, to a God who wants to be in an epic romance with me!
