Better is One Day in your Courts

     Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere. I long to be taken to the house of the Lord and transplanted into the courts of our God. All the Days of my life I want to look into your fiery eyes and see your delight over me on your face, to live out my life leaning on my Beloved. I put all else behind, setting it aside, for it can never compare to the sweetness of your presence, oh God. 
     There is no where else to go where I can find the refreshing and love of the Father wash over my weary soul. How sweet is your gaze on me Father that you lavish your delight and goodness on your daughter. I have tasted and seen the good works of my Father, I have drank from your cup and been refreshed by your pools of living water. I am ravished by your love, I cannot stand under the depth, height, and breadth of your love. Every passing moment deepens the love you lavish on me, I never want to be separated from you.  I praise you for teaching my heart to love like your heart! I want to be a vessel of your love, an open portal of it to Earth. I want to wait here in the presence of my God and King and pour my love on you like sweet oil.               


     You have declared me worthy of the love you lavish on me, you look into my eyes and say I am enough.   Enough to fight for and protect, to cherish as precious and valuable. I am a piece of your heart and you are mine. I belong to you, all of me laid out before the very Creator of the world and I cannot be hidden from you. I cannot hide from all of you and the love you created before the foundations of the earth that was on your heart so desperately you created me to lavish that love on! I was more than a twinkle in my mother's eye those many years ago, I was a dream you carried for thousands of years in your heart, a wish you breathed into existence in my mothers womb. You didn't stop there, you have more than a dream for me you breathed dreams into my heart before I could speak, so that I could find delight in this place, and find delight in relationship with my maker. As we go hand in hand to fulfill the dreams you whispered in my ears before I was even born, you saw the desires there and you created me to find those dreams and desires so I could understand more fully the goodness of my Father. 
     Father God, thank you for loving me so completely, you've never left me or forsaken me. you sing joyous songs of your delight over me and have ravished my heart with this love that is so big I cannot contain 1% of your love even that portion is to great for me to hold. Again I sit in awe at the Father who never ceases to show up in my life, to answer my questions, and meet me in the secret place. I am never removed from your burning gaze, i long for more of You, more of You, even more of You! 
     Take me away, with you Lord. I am blown away by the good things you prepare in advance for me, good gifts from my Father, I have no lack. My heart is glad and I will sing the praises of my God. You have hemmed me in, behind and before. I am sealed, sealed in you. Wanna get lost in your presence, wanna be sealed in you. 

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Psalm 139:5

Psalm 139:5 You go before me and you follow me.You place your hand of blessing on my head.NLT
Psalm 139:17 How precious are your thoughts about me O God, they cannot be numbered.NLT

      Reading through the top verse, Id forgotten how I had clung to that promise that you go before me and prepare a way, the NIV says I am hemmed in behind and before. To me that speaks to protection, being hemmed in on all sides not only am I surrounded by you But I am sealed in YOU! That is the place I renew my strength, where the reproach of the world is washed away, as I am drawn into the arms of my Beloved.

     I am blown away by your promises and how irrevocable they are, these things you whispered over me in my childhood that still are whispered over my life today.Your faithful promises are my armor and protection. Last night I was prophesied over that you are singing over me colorful songs of Joy. I thank you that I get to live out Zephaniah 3:17 For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a might savior. He will delight in you with gladness. With his love, He will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs. Not only do you sing your songs of Joy over my life, but your love calms every fear. Every one because perfect loves cast out fear, so I get to live in a place where fear cannot stand, surrounded in your love and goodness.