Lord I feel like the words Saul  gave when he met Samuel, (1 Sam 9) He says, But I'm only from the tribe of Benjamin, the smallest tribe in Israel, and my family is the least important of all the families of that tribe. Why are you talking like this to me?

How can I be a hint of the things you have placed on my heart? Lord I need you to show me who I am because I can give you lists of everything Ive done wrong and how Ive failed. And yet you never leave me in my junk. Your arm is never to short to rescue me from this place. I need your presence here in this place! I feel beaten and defeated but this round isn't over and I am more than a conqueror in Christ. I will stand beside you in victory Lord!. Your word in Psalm 139 says, You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head.
You are my strong tower and I run to you Lord hide me in you. I cant stand alone and I dont want to even if I could! I want to be so close with you I cant tell where I end and you begin! Lord I pray you would purify me, for I am a person with unclean lips. But I want to be prepared to go where you are sending me!  I want to go to work with you today and spend time doing the work of your kingdom!